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Just remembered a conversation with Trish, a classmate from college.

She asked me to choose between "having my father settle peacefully with one (new) family of his own (regardless of how many families he's built already)or having him continue womanizing, changing women every now and then". I chose the first one. Trish chose the second.

She explained to me that if ever that really happened to their family, she wants her father to be miserable, not to find peace in himself with a new family. She wanted him to continue living his "feeling-single-forever" life and get as many girlfriends or wives as he can without even settling with one.

I chose the first. Regardless if this really happened to me or not, I will still choose that the father would finally settle in one family and be merry with his (new) wife and kid(s). Breaking a family (and a relationship with your wife) is as it is worst already. I think starting a new life with a new family and stopping himself from all vanity, adultery, lust and even more other sins is better than continuing his "so-called lifestyle of womanizing". It's like giving him another chance. It may not be with his first family but it really does not matter anymore. Probably, I really would have wanted him to find peace in himself. Probably I do not want more kids to suffer from their parents' broken relationship.

I sincerely wished that for him since then, even when I was still so young. However, until now, it is very disappointing that he fails to find that peace. In this little girls heart, I sincerely wish for him to find it in himself to change. Probably it (still) saddens me that he is miserable.

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buntong-hininga.