FINALLY

WALANG PAGSIDLANG KALIGAYAHAN. Naks!

My mom told me that Papang (mom's dad) will be coming home (Pilipinas) for good. Waaaah, upon hearing this, I wanted to cry.

facebook wallpost:"Meet my first love. Si Papang Johnny. (Lolo ko). First picture when I was 6 years old, then, I saw him again after 16 years na (2009). Nevertheless, I love him nasa US man siya o nasa Pinas, dahil lagi siyang nasa aking puso. ♥ ♥ ♥"

since birth, until before i started studying, i stayed in ilocos with my grandparents (mama's parents). my brother was with my parents in cubao while ako, playing the cute-little-apo-na-first-love-ng-grandparents sa probinsya. my lola was a gradeschool teacher. being the toddler apo, i was always tagged along in school wearing ternos. i was the only baby in our old filipino house that's why i was so much loved by my lolo and lola. i call them papang and mamang. i remember having my papang's elbow as my pacifier every night. papang made us (brother and I) personalized higaan (a sort-of pillows) that my brother kept until he was in gradeschool. those were the best years of my life (syempre bata pa ako nun). and then mamang died of heart attack. i was 3 years old then, i was very angry of my uncle(mom's brother) because i thought that he was the reason why my mamang died. at 3 years old, i shouted at him while crying, "pinatay mo si mamang. pinatay mo si mamang". that was my first heartbreak ever.

since papang was already alone, he decided to go to the states since his brother was already a citizen there. that was my second heartbreak. my lolo leaving me was the hardest thing my little heart experienced at that time (after mamang died). i think i cried a pool of tears (exag. haha). i know it was really hard for him to leave me, but he needed to continue with his life in a new environment and i already needed to study back then.

from then, until now, we communicate through phone calls and text messages.

i remember the summer before third year college, from biology, papang wanted me to shift to nursing. i was pushing that i will finish biology and pursue medicine, but he didnt want to. we talked in the phone for hours, me crying and him, trying to persuade me to shift. he was like, "if you become a nurse, you'll get the chance to see me and be with me here in the US. ayaw mo ba nun?". i nearly gave in.

he came home for a vacation last 2009. yes, after 16 years, i saw the number 1 man that i love. in those 16 years, i cried lots because of missing him. hearing his voice breaks my heart. in that one month that he was here, he stayed with me for 2 straight weeks. we would eat chopped cabbage with tomatoes, just that. we would watch the news and discuss it. i taught him how to use the computer (he even had computer classes in the states) but still, he was not able to learn (hehe). those days, were also my favorite.

and next month, february, my first love will be coming home for goooooodddddddd. waaaaaah. muntik na akong umiyak sa harap ng nanay ko nang sinabi niya sa akin to, nahiya lang ako. waaaaaaaahh. this is the best news everrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... syempre, he will be staying with us na. i am excited to be with papang na. february, please come sooner.

my lolo is my first love, my number 1 man, my favorite person (tied with mama. haha) kaya i am soooooo happy that finally, he'll be with us.

Thank You Lord. This is the best gift everrrrrrrrrrr. <3 <3 <3



Thanks.
Love and Peace.
Marra